You know what? Some days it all just feels a little pear shaped... I had a little more bubbles last night than was probably best... I have felt lousy all morning, and been unable to paint.
"Is That the Time" (c) Denise Daffara
That's just today's 'legitimate' excuse, but for some time now I've just not felt like painting much at all,...the 'not good enough s', the 'you can't paint that agains' the 'who do you think you are' s', the 'perfectionista mean b*tch', the 'tired, and really can't be bothered anymore' there's a whole bunch... this is a big fat yucky squirmy confession, and well, I'm owning it, releasing it and allowing it to pass, however long that takes.
I listened in to SARK's inspiration line today, it's the first time I've tried it, ... as usual she says just the right thing to give me a loving little nudge, just to look at something in a different little way.. can and does make such a difference.
she said some times she take a "miracle walk", she walks outside, raises up her arms to the sky and says "Miracle find me Now" I love this idea. And, another snippet was the description of taking a little time to speak to a smaller weaker part of yourself, not the big part that takes over and gets everything done, or takes charge of all the stuff in your life... but one of the smaller hidden parts... and how by giving that part just a little voice to speak you can learn something about yourself... something you may have been missing amongst all the 'should be's' and 'wannabeeee's' etc., and therefore you've changed the course of things.. and created a little shift... where things take a different little track... which could easily lead to something wonderful that you weren't expecting.
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I also got a call from an artist friend who wants to come and hang out and learn some of
"my magic".... and so I've said, sure and you can teach me some of yours.
and then I came here... thinking, guiltily, it's been several days since my last post... I'm meant to be doing this more regularly... and wow, I happened upon two magical posts from two other fellow creative dreamers...
Life is funny like that..... by my new delightful friend Dana Sparkle, and from Nic Hohn, self validation + self promotion
It doesn't always seem this way, but just as well I believe...there is a huge, beautiful, sparkly, delightful, wonderful, full-of-love, enduring, courageous, strong, inspired, talented, kind, soft, gentle and warm-hearted Self that longs to come out and play and be and she is also me.
So, I'm feeling a lot better now... thanks for visiting, I hope to come back soon.