Monday, August 30, 2010

Smashed to pieces

“There are very few human beings who receive the truth, complete and staggering, by instant illumination. Most of them acquire it fragment by fragment, on a small scale, by successive developments, cellularly, like a laborious mosaic.”
- Anais Nin

How very interesting . . .  I have had that quote on my website for years now... ever since it's beginning, the words of Anais Nin resonated within me so well.  So... it is with some perplexity and a certain amount of acceptance I faced a small creative dilemma . . . probably over a year ago now I went to some mosaic classes, this art form has always fascinated me and I was busting to break stuff and turn it into something gorgeous for my garden... but interestingly.. I did the project to about 90% completion... I made a beautiful bird bath... but had not permanently fixed the platter to the top, and I had NOT GROUTED the finished base.  

So... earlier this year when we had builders doing our home renovation my 'almost complete' bird bath got knocked.. and the platter on the top fell and lost some of it's tiles.. this was ok I thought... no harm was done to the base... I'll get to it one of these days... "Nooo, don't worry about it" I said.  "It doesn't matter"

Okay... so now just a couple of weeks ago my husband dragged the hose across the path of my  'ac' bird bath.. and this was the result : 

it's quite "shattering" really... I have learned I need to follow through and complete a job... 

I abandoned this project before it reached it's full potential and beauty.... and I am learning through the Feminine Power course that I am taking... I have actually been abandoning the girl inside me all of my life.. and now I am the woman she needs me to be to take proper care of her.  This is a huge realisation, and only came to me today thanks to the amazing facilitation of the course . .  

Deep emotional wounding is apparent in us all . . . it's how we come to terms with loving ourselves out of it, and being true to our wonderful selves that is one of life's mysteries and blessings all at the same time.

I'm putting myself back together again... 

with love
Denise x


  1. you & your mosaic are so worth it.
    my favourite anais nin quote is:
    There came a time when the risk to remain tight in the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.
    bloom and grow gorgeous one...

  2. anais nin--such a wise, eloquent soul. and so are you, even if you don't realize it. this was wonderfully profound and creative of you--in thoughts and in writing. i love when people can learn something about themselves from a symbolic moment. i can relate to the broken bird bath sometimes too!